Finding Faith

John 13:7 says, "You may not understand now what I am doing, but someday you will." What a powerful quote! If these past few months here at college have taught me anything, it's that good things take time. Far too often I find myself questioning God's plan. I question why things do or don't happen and if he actually cares. I believe every one of us here on Earth is guilty of this. God made us HUMAN for a reason. He gave us free will so that we can question him. If all people have 100% faith without question it would be a very different world. Questions and doubts are laced into every part of our lives. Although this may seem like a bad thing, it isn't. Doubt allows us to become better Christians. When our faith is challenged but yet we overcome it and trust in Him anyways, we show our love for our heavenly father.  Throughout these last few months, I felt like I was lost in a forest of doubt. Doubt of both God and myself. I felt like nothing was going...

Henry Ford once said, "Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently." Failure has always been something that I have never functioned well with. Throughout nearly all of my life, I have rarely ever failed. That is, until this last month. These last 30 or so days have been jam-packed with stress, doubt, and (most of all) failure. Graduating from high school Suma Cum Laude, the president of three different organizations, nearly $10,000 in scholarships for the first year of college, and countless titles at the district, state, and national levels may seem like nothing but sunshine and rainbows. On the contrary, this has led to a terrible and completely unrealistic outlook on life. My countless successes caused me to believe that failure was less than me. I was untouchable. Well, I was sooo wrong. Little did I know that my world was about to be shook. My month of defeat began at 8:00 am, on a Thursday morning, in the high school library. P...